Unknown Speaker 0:07 fashion model Unknown Speaker 0:10 until they told me that I always looked like I had just gotten out of bed. Of course I always did look like I just gotten out of bed because I had just gotten out of bed. Unknown Speaker 0:22 Plus the fact Unknown Speaker 0:23 that they said I didn't have sheet care whenever that mean. So I went to their special beauty salon to get my hair straight. In a half an hour I had two bald spots, one here and one here. Now here it is stubble. When I ran my head across the top of my scalp, it felt like burned grass. You know, the the scorched earth policy and Vietnam. Well, that was my head scorched earth policy. So I went back and said, My dear Mr. Caruso, you will have to give me a week I simply can't work with a scorched earth head. And he said, Oh, making trouble again, all your models, all you do is make trouble trouble fell off it. Well, I guess I'll have to sue you. So I sued him. That was many years ago. And it still hasn't come to court due to the fact that I was arrested for contempt of court. But you know, I was jaywalking. And I had about five tickets, adding up to about $100. And if only kept coming to get me so I went. And I was standing there in LA and all these other people were getting in line ahead of me plunking their money down. And this young lawyer came up and said, That's the Assistant DA. That's why he can get his money down first. Just because you don't have any influence in the courts. You're not getting them to put your money down. I mean, can you imagine that taking your money. This is after sending the 10 different rooms and three different days because I was going to the wrong room wrong term. So finding ways to complete rockets in the court. And I said, Your Honor, she sat there with the American flag behind him bigger than life there you sit with the American flag bigger than life while you're taking bribes from the assistant district attorney. Now just because I don't happen to have any Paul in this part of the country. It's no reason why I shouldn't be able to get out of here. My father is a lawyer and I know all about that legal Hyde Park cracy that goes on. You should be ashamed. That young lady, stay right there. I'm sending two policemen and I'm putting you right in jail contempt of court. And I looked there and I saw these two jail cells right down the hall and I thought I really should go to jail for the principle of the thing. So grimy. I just couldn't face that. I thought God, how long will I rot in jail? So another lawyer came up and said, like this is a very humane judge just apologize to him and everything will be all right. So I sat down and started to giggle and I couldn't stop giggling. I just sat and giggled and giggled and giggled while all these little you know, petty thieves came and went murders adulterers, no kisses Kenema finally, and they had a cop and either side of me and I looked around and I started guns. I pulled out my sketchpad and I started drawing guns and holsters and belts and buckles and guns and holsters. And they loved the drawings and I was passing drawings out to them with guns. Unknown Speaker 3:33 Your Honor, Unknown Speaker 3:36 I was really crying by this time. But when I stopped crying, I started laughing with the combination of laughing and crying and I put your honor, I'm gonna go live with me. I'm really terribly sorry, I really didn't mean to be rude to you. He said, All right. Don't let it happen again. I'll let you go this time, but just don't let it happen. Again, this is A Court of Justice, a court of law, we have to have order in here. So I went away back to my modeling job because I was jaywalking to try to get there on time as they send you one place at nine one place at 931 place at 10 o'clock. So finally, I decided I just had enough. And I went way up north to the St. Lawrence River. And then they started calling me from America. They kept calling me saying Oh, everything you just did. We'd like to do a lot. We'd like you to work with Pam. John can make down so I came back down again. And photographer who was doing the job I had a fight with before I left so he wasn't very happy to see me. And it was a third retake and they had already done and two remains very popular particular time. I'm going to share our Morgan method. I did it on her route. I did it on me. Oh god. Is that walked into the studio, the assistant editor was looking at the context and she said Can't we do something with her nose right here? I mean that won't do at all. US dropping the dollar now is doesn't look too bad in this when not only did I not have she cared I do but I did not even have a sheep nose. Then she got into my neck. That bow neck. Can't we cut that down? Can we do a little retouching? Now we've got I had a not bad neck. I mean, I certainly wouldn't call it a bull neck. So she got a hold of me later and said No, my dear. You know if you're really serious about this, I think that you should go to the museum, the Metropolitan Museum of Art and study paintings of women from every age and take all the magazines and study everything learn hairdos, no makeup learn style just got I mean it was. Unknown Speaker 6:13 They said Cleopatra's nose was an inch shorter, it would have changed the course of history. And I said to her, Well, perhaps I should have the nose change. And she said, Oh, my dear. Oh, why not your greatest asset? Don't you do it to? And then I forgot, what about the hair, perhaps a bit of straightening? Oh, tell change of thing. Just go to the museum and study women. So I didn't think that I needed to spend any more time in the museum. I've spent half my life in the museum itself. And I said, Well, I guess that just won't work anymore. Forget it, I'll do something else. I can't think of anything else to say. Then, and I'll get half the money. So I got not only one, but I found two. And I got them both. And they both of them only spent a week at it. And managed to find that very wealthy man and went off to travel the world. But I was left holding the bag. Next thing you know, I had my mother down then Well, I don't think that that your sister is really teaching school in New York school because I got a postcard from her from Africa. You know how Africa it had nothing written on it. Just nothing. And I found up in the upper left hand corner 26 degrees latitude. So I looked it up in the encyclopedia. And it's a 26 degrees latitude of Africa. Now what is she doing in Africa? Who is supporting her? I'd like to know. So I said, Well, perhaps she has a job working on a steamer. You know, maybe she's a chef or something she sent me that. I know all about you girls. I know all about you. You're no good. You're no good. Who's supporting her now? 26 degrees latitude. Meanwhile, the next one. Unknown Speaker 8:38 Then your mother said something. hippy. you're happier. Unknown Speaker 8:44 She said, Yeah, you were happy. Nice. To be a happy? Unknown Speaker 8:50 Yeah. But then you told her often. It was a beautiful. Unknown Speaker 8:53 Oh, yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. She said making any money at what you're doing? Painting anybody by them making any money. Why don't you work? Work work. Mom, you are when was the last time you were? Oh, my dear mother. My dad has been taking care of you for the past 30 years. Back when you were my age, you were well ensconced with your minks and diamonds. Houses you who's taking care of me. So you can think about it Money, money, money, money. Do you ever have another thought in your head but money? Just kind of leave? Why don't you get out of here? Bring this big, fantastic club cherubs pretty painted on the wall Stanford white belt it gold gilt you know the the rejects from the 400 You know, the four hundreds grandmother's sitting around and they're black taffeta dresses and white doily lace Carlos sitting around a table the table and my father saying, huh? Watch it and I know people in here and watch it. Turn it down, turn it down. Be careful. No, I know people. And when I said, Well, I don't give a fuck who you know, they don't know you. Yeah. You could be just anybody. Meanwhile, over in the other corner of the room, ships, the one legged millionaire from Switzerland, who my father put on to us, my dear, calling us horse who is doing the pimping. Who's doing the pimping? Well, he called us up about a year ago and took girls, you must come and have dinner with me. I'm at the club. And he goes, it's wonderful man. I just met Alan's out the banks in Switzerland. So we went and he said to us now he's in the bar and he's coming out. He's got a wooden leg don't mention his limp. Said really? Don't we see bow rebounds every day. Don't worry more sophisticated. We've seen a limb peer or lend their canes are nothing new. We won't say a word. So you check. The four of us went to dinner. And here is one leg had been one hand under the table and one sister in one hand and me squeeze on my father's sitting over there. Thank you. Thank you. Oh, yes, I have a wrench to it. You call that a wrench. 400 Cheap that all died tape. After you got the sheep experts in Canada down to take care of them who tried to rate me by the way. You call that a ranch that scraggly little sheep and you said pay any attention to her. She thinks she could run everything better than I could like nothing better than to have my money and run the whole show. And I've had your damn right to run into a hell of a lot better than you do. Giving you He took out his claim schedule for the weekend to Texas and asked my other sister if she'd like to take a little trip to Texas with him to his ranch. And I was getting a little jealous by this term. You know, I wish I could have liked to go to Texas. It was awfully hot New York. It was hot in Texas. But anyway, they were all those black and gets in all those goldfish ponds, and all those branches and everything else and he was taking Jeannette off to the ranch. So he shoved it back in his pocket just as my father came back to the table. And so what his schedule his planned schedule, you know, should we go TWA or Eastern or how should we go and grab yourself home and the next week? Unknown Speaker 13:00 My father comes out and says Well, have you seen wooden leg? And I told him no, he called us out but he wouldn't like actually did come to dinner but we didn't have any furniture or any breaks or any food or anything. So he went out and bought Slim Jim smoked sausages for us to eat for dinner. And he just seemed so elegant. There we had one wicker chair on a stool with his wooden leg up on the stool and the wicker chair not minding us to know it was working. And they were everything was just so tense that I left I went out and just left I called up somebody and said I can't take it down to you. So I called my sister to kind of know what happened and he wanted me to comb my hair a different way. So I went and got a hair brush and started calming. No she wouldn't get the hair brush and comb her hair. She said I don't want to cut my hair. I just spent all day in the beauty parlor and he said let me if you can do a little thing for me is comb your hair differently. I don't know and he laughed and I'm so upset. So I said well don't worry it was probably the bare floors on the floors no furniture and no food he thinks what kind of a family do they come from after all this talk about ranches and idea somebody's crazy in their family who is it? So I called my father and I said dad we just lost a customer Why Why what happened? What happened happened? I thought he'd like funny new girls like when he was like your little myself. So I said well he just disappeared into the clear blue. You know we don't have any furniture back from send a rock right down right down. So the next day down came wall to wall gold Carpani. So I thought well now what we should do is call him up every week until we lost another millionaire and perhaps we'd get furniture and stereo record players and television sets and everything. So I started calling the next week I said another one just got away. Dad, you got to do something about this. So he said, Well, Ron, you've got a Rog, what else do you need? I'm Yeah, All right, I sit on the rug. I said, Well, look, I mean, how would you like to walk into a house and only find a rug? Who said, All right, I'll send you down a couch. Well, by the under six months, we had the whole place furnished. Not a millionaire in sight, though. Find me the millionaire came back, and he called me and he said, but I must tell you that every time he reappeared on the scene, he has Spain and Switzerland, and he said, Look at my scar, misguide nanny within a car crash, he not only carried the photograph of the woman who hit him over the head with the chain, because he wouldn't fuck her. But he also carried a photograph of the Jaguar he cracked up in. And then the third time he came, it was another accident. Someone beat him up and I said, you don't need a wife you need a bodyguard and a nurse, somebody to push the wheelchair Unknown Speaker 15:57 Well, this is just getting back to the story about the postcard from Morocco. Are you still running? Well, um, we were sitting there talking about the postcard from Morocco and Metropolitan Club. There was there I looked up and there was a girl I had known for years with a wooden like, man. And I said, Oh, by the smile, we're out. They all said they all know each other. My mother said, I saw her sitting there when I walked in, in the corner chair and I said, She doesn't look like she belongs here. I bet she's meaning that she thinks you're the SP The trouble is she does. My mother. And she said I had never met this woman. But I knew that's who she was here to me. And in he walked and I knew it was him from his lamp and showing out if your father said, Ah, how are you? And then she went on and on again about I knew she'd have to be a friend of you girls. So the Swiss men, she gets the girl who was having a date with this with the wooden leg guy last night. And when my guy was the one who came and ran off because we didn't have any rugs is still around. Oh yes. He's still around. Maybe we should do. And I. I introduced him to Katrina and he gave her a $300 guitar. And then he kept calling me up telling me how cold she was. Well, here's what he would do. He would call up and he would say, my darling, you've never even held his hand. Lankan McKesson. I'm gonna say my darling I'm so lonely here. I want to see you please come have dinner with me and I thought you were not with my sister Anita not too bizarre with you are loved. But I thought that you were in love with that other man. When I met you, your sister. She is called. It was always you are loved. Please, please come and see me. So finally, I thought all right. And backtracking you realize this is we're bringing it up to about six months ago. So I put on my only square dress I could find and went to this horrible, horrible expensive rat something like the del Monaco grill. And the waiter came up and said med Moselle so I sent them to me and Sue. You wanted me to order not having been in one of those places since I was five. I wasn't aware of the procedures said they brought me clams on the half shell beautifully done on a sterling silver clown play with the lemon wrapped in gauze so he was spreading your eye. And everything was so beautiful. I just sat there staring at it for about a half an hour. Of course I was stoned out of my mind. I had to turn on to even face him. And I turned to him and before we went, I sit out have a little pot on her cheek have little pot so he's puffing away. And we get there and all I can do is stare at the clams. I said they're so beautiful. Oh, I can eat them. Look at me. Look at this lemon. wrapped up like a little bunting A Little Baby Bunting like Christ in His slot. Unknown Speaker 19:18 Smoking pot. Well, Unknown Speaker 19:20 I got him stoned that all I could do was look at it. I didn't want to deface it by eating it. You see? So oh wooden leg was getting terribly Peter because I was crazy here. It takes a starving creature dressed well. I had a bearish crepe dress from Jack's floor manager was ordinary like this was before the mini I was about to hear. And I had sort of a ratty long sweater and some am baby and three inch spikes. Unknown Speaker 19:59 You mean you address Same for the, for the restaurant, yeah, Unknown Speaker 20:03 for the restaurant. And I kept saying, let me start pulling out more photographs. You know, he said, This is the girl and beat me up. So you showed me that six months ago. That's what he lives. Oh, man that's not met. And then he came up to me and said, he had just gotten an accident again six months ago, six weeks ago with the first thing he told us anyway, then things like, like the doctors, the doctors told me, I'm a Superman, Superman. I should have been in the hospital for two years, my jaw was cracked up, my teeth were falling out. I'm a Superman. I had my dentist in there in two days. And he completely fixed me up. And I was walked right out of there and six weeks wiped out so he could get into his next accident. Right. So anyway, my father said, Well, I just can't understand why he isn't seeing your sister anymore. I mean, maybe he found out about her past. Maybe he found out about her past I said, What do you mean, your past he could, you know, that felt like she was living with? I said, Well, I'm sure he understand that throughout. You know, I'm sure he's had mistresses this woman hit him in the head with the chain because he wouldn't factor you know, he must have been fucking here before. He said, I'm talking about that. And kind of what what did I bring up? Of course, he doesn't have mistresses. I mean, I mean, of course, he doesn't have women. I mean, He's a fine man, a fine man, a pillar of the community. And I said, But dad, he's 50 years old Sean, and you're not trying to say he went through his life without ever, you know, getting laid? And he said, suppose he was divorced or you divorce? Or divorce Canada divorce? I mean, he already had a married doc to him, right? So getting bored. Unknown Speaker 21:40 No, I I like to listen to just parts of conversation. Sometimes I follow the story. And then I just listen to parts. Or besides, I believe that my unconscious is still listening. So I don't think it's important. I mean, you can do all kinds of things. You can somebody mumbling I think you get almost as much Unknown Speaker 22:06 you really do Unknown Speaker 22:08 sometimes. Unknown Speaker 22:11 Can we turn it off for a minute? A young girl should be at the time. I believed him. I thought not only am I a manic depressive, paranoid schizophrenic that cetera through the whole Freudian textbook, but on top of that, suddenly, I discovered that I'm frigid goodness that I doubled up my visits to the psychiatrist $2 instead of $1. TEDx on welfare eventually tried to cure my frigidity. Finally, he started talking about sadomasochism, you know with thing and he was very interested in it, it seemed he started reading the you know, he's Edward Stovall recommended it to me, so I read it. And I said that a lot of trash the first two chapters of fine but after you get into it, you realize it definitely was not written by any party in reality, whatever the name was supposed to be some man just like you wrote it to countless women into thinking we should all be math. So I went to a literary expert, who was also and then yes, you know, my underground New York, a woman said who did read this book? She said, Well, rock has been but he knows it was done to buy Beretta. He knows that tape, hatless was on. deployment. So I thought not only did I get the dope and who wrote the book, but I should introduce this woman to this lever I had now she could find him slayed girls themselves. So I grabbed them up and they hit it off like mad. He'd say said to me now there's a real woman really European woman can you believe it in 1967 he was still talking about a European women versus American men. Can you believe it? But anyway well mannered that Unknown Speaker 24:12 was one European massive system. Unknown Speaker 24:17 Well, she was about to defy when she had just given birth. She said anyway, he really dug the whole thing that she was really a woman and she knew what he was talking about. Of course when he left he said to me, get rid of him. Well, anyway, he called me up every day please get me a slave girl get me slave. slave girl that woman must know some slave girls after all, you know this party should go to so I said. Well, my dear I have searched Ty alone you will never find a slave girl that will hold your interest half as much as I so I'll volunteer. I'll be right down. I was madly in love with him having a nervous breakdown that I was frigid. You know but if tried anything so down I went in the taxi He said, No, no. Do you take off your pant on the way down? I want the image of you sitting with a cold taxi leather against your bear. And I said all right, I'll do everything so I got down cut my clothes and of course it was freezing cold whipped into a restaurant like the ladies room took off might be attacked pants etc. came creeping up the stairs and then you don't talk to Doug Taylor. Don't talk. Put your hands behind your back. Wow. Take off your boots. Well, he gave me to wax with this whip that were enough. I mean, Christ wouldn't have been able to stand on the cross. You know, Father forgive them. He would have just wrenched himself off and killed whoever did it. Did that ever hurt to wax on the soles of my feet? But I started I actually started I thought if there is anything that your virginity and this is it, I'll do it. I want to be a real woman European style. Love it digger. Unknown Speaker 26:04 What you said on the screen. Unknown Speaker 26:09 And he said Nero you couldn't take it. No, you couldn't take it. I said, I can take it. I can take it and I won't scream yet. Nanny hit me on the palms of the hands. Well, if you think this sounds bad, you should experience Oh, play the piano. Okay. Bye. I had a welt on my hand. I thought my hand was dropped. And of course I had been used to it from daily family squabbles as a child. So then he threw me on the bed and started again and I said stop. You've got the wrong girl. You're right. I can't make the thing I have to be fitted for the rest of my life. You know, he really wanted he really wanted me to beat him up. Here is which I came to conclusion of the whole thing. Yeah. But this is going on while my sister is up in the rug was department with the wooden leg gagne telling her to brush your hair another way this is the same night I went down there to him to get away from the wooden leg guy. And what did I run into torture? So I decided to stop seeing him for a while my bruises healed. And Unknown Speaker 27:27 over did he give you money or anything? Unknown Speaker 27:31 It's down in the ditch in the world. Now we have you know a cup of tea and little out me yelling chatted my back to our intellectual conversations talked about Proust and, and Marie Bonaparte who wrote a new book. Women sexuality and all that garbage. Freudian gold. She's a current writer Marie Bolden, Mary Donna Pat, current writer straight from the arms of Freud. You see the trouble with their right don't trust anybody over 30 anybody over 30 is hung up in this Freudian, European American women, heterosexual, super heterosexual bag. And the way I figure it out is the super heterosexual bag. It's just simply sadomasochism picked on sadomasochism for data. So I went home a few weeks later I got to be a lesbian and heterosexual if all the heterosexual men I know and they're all like that are like that. And it seems that they're all like, you know, big pain. Unknown Speaker 28:37 You have to go to lower classes. Unknown Speaker 28:40 I tried lower class, they were all empty. T heads. Yes, this construction like you said baby, I'm a T had nothing to do with B A T had a T head and I said okay, smokes and T so he smokes and T analysis time to get out of the house the other day. He's a baby. I just got this vision. You're going down on me and biting me off. And I said, well make sure you keep the vision because I'm leaving the house right. So I went in the bedroom to put on the rest of my mega and he must have just seen a movie Marlon Brando or something. Because when I got to the door of the bedroom there he was posed in doorway, like behind him dark in the bedroom and I said, Oh God, do I have to go through this again. And I tried to crawl under his arm and he came in to baby to grab me by the hair. Shop my head down to my pants. I said You must be kidding, but you used to be so gentle and impotent. Remember port Jeff used to go to port Jeff to fish and cook clown for Jefferson long and I said remember the fun used to have a port Jack. He never grabbed me by the hair on my head. I mean, it just grew out after being you know Vietnam Rabo two years ago I finally got it to grow out. Don't rip it all out again. It seems that everything runs and parallels. So he kept it up. I said, I'm sorry, but I'm gonna have to scream. He didn't think I'd scream so I laid out a piercing shriek the doctor upstairs playing the piano. All brain surgeons play the piano in their spare time. Did you know that while